Unworthy

True, I’ve been scattered in fragments before,

Like everyone else who has loved another being;

I am still trying to find a remedy, a cure

For this ailment that haunts me,

That leaves me in turmoil

And wrapped in chains deep down a dungeon,

A dark and solitary place where I’ve lost a part of myself;

My mind races back and forth,

This tug-o-war is never ending;

My efforts prolong in futility

For I can see no change, feel no difference;

To you, I’m just a mere acquaintance,

Just another human who will be forgotten.

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Living on a hope

There are so many ways
To love every day;
No matter come what may,
The present is today.
If you look within, not everything is grey;
There are places where you can kiss euphoric rays.

You have fallen deep
From a path too steep;
Your fears, they creep,
Still the black sheep.
But worry not, ease those tender weeps;
You are not alone, rest assured and go to sleep.

Your shadows may grow,
Your wounds may show,
Your self-esteem too low
But you still can glow.
If not today, maybe tomorrow,
You never know how the morn will follow.

College gives me Anxiety

It is okay to not fit in
But these days it’s getting harder to pretend
Praying time should move faster
Maybe it will make things better.

Walking down the hallways
Feeling shadowed by glances
It’s all in my head, nobody really cares
Or do they?

Heaps of wreck in this tiny head
Guilty to burden or spoil the fun
Dead inside already from all the frustration
All the anger, all this hatred for myself.

Waiting for this sacrificial life to end
Albeit I keep trying to play my cards right
I know I’m not the only one down this path
But there’s no point in trying too hard.